This is my 2nd summer working solely (soul-ley? more like it) on Ange&Ris. It's great, I'm grateful for the time and the freedom. I hope my piano gets tapped as often as this computer! But there's something negative about it that sucks me in. I find myself working frantically from 7-8am to 7,8,9,10pm - never being able to quit and be at peace with what the day held. One more trip to myspace. One more check on the email. One more thing crossed off the list. And if I sit down at the piano? One more song, one more song, one more song. Is this relatable? Am I a work-a-holic or is there something in us humans that, once lit, burns and burns?
I'm rediscovering what it is to really take a day off, a sabbath. For me it doesn't mean sitting in front of the TV with a computer on my lap. In fact, sometimes it even means saying "no" to friendly invites - just to go home and take a nap on the couch. I read somewhere that Angelina Jolie and her kids have "Sunday sleeps" where everyone gets on one bed and naps together. Now, THAT sounds like peace to me! Curled up next to mom, brother, the dog. Curled up next to my husband on a perfectly beautiful day. Turning off the computer so that I can't hear the friendly "bling!" whenever someone sends me new mail. Ah.
I truly have to SEEK rest to find it. I have to discipline myself to rest. The things that people assume are restful -- having lunch together, bar-b-ques, going out to see some live music, watching a movie -- they're all great, but they just don't give me a true battery recharge. I hope this summer I find some sun. I hope I stop at 1pm and take a walk with the cuteness, my dog Blitz. I hope I can discipline myself enough to walk away from my dream, my passion, my music from time to time and take a slow breath of rest. Hmmm, 11am. Maybe now-
