Cradle Me

I think there are lots of folks lonely, feeling like they’re going crazy in their heads when they’re alone, wondering if any eyes will ever see them. Feeling like those things desired with all their heart are just out of reach. As a woman – and a single one at that – this is a familiar piece of my structure. As a woman – a woman in love with a specific man – this is a familiar piece of my structure. As a woman - a married woman, even - this is still familiar. This song came during a soul bleed, looking for an end to a season of waiting and required patience. (Baby, when will you propose? Is God holding out on me? Is marriage my Dagon – a more important presence and reality than the Bridegroom himself? These demons of discontent, loneliness, self pity and entitlement are scarring my heart.) Even though the wedding eventually happened, myriads of new unreachable desires bring these same demons to head again. Many of you hearing this song have shared with me how you relate. Thanks for identifying - I guess you can't help it being human and all.

Another dark sanctuary, another slightly out-of-tune piano to slow the bleeding, and another tune – this time stemming from a sermon about that surreal story from history. Christ crosses the water only to encounter the madman screaming in the graveyards – and then rescuing him from his legion of demons. Madlady Ris can relate – rescue me, cradle me, take my breaths for me. Let me feel your human hands touching me – maybe even through my human beloved. But let me not mistake him for You.

Cradle

Shackled on my island alone, unknown.
You come brave this ocean storm you own.
Atrophied, my bloodless flesh and bone
your mercy eyes have seen,
you breathe for me.
Cradle me on my broken knees.
Cast these old demons into the sea.

Returning to my chains, when will you be enough?
Prove to me again, I’m alive, you’re in love.
Show this drowsy, jaded, faded soul
you’re uncontainable,
remedial.
Cradle me on my broken knees.
Cast these old demons into the sea.

You’re uncontainable,
so joyful.
Cradle me on my broken knees.
Love me, endear yourself to me.